so i'm not one to go all philosophical on you, or debate the upcoming election... you can just look at the back of our cars to see where we stand on that issue... but i have noticed, unfortunately, that i am a want'er and a wisher. i want "things", and i wish i could be better at "that". God has given me/us so much and it is very hard for me to stop and appreciate it all. i can see that i am passing this down to owen. every morning he comes into our room and i ask him "what do you want to do today, owen?" and he replies one of two ways, either, 1. "go to disney world" or 2. "go shopping, new dump truck". everyday. the same question with the same response. did i mention that we have 5 dump truck of various sizes, including the biggest one that you can find. anyway.... today i was "browsing", meaning looking on the internet for things to buy that i need, i mean want.... and i came across a deal on a backpack, and i want it. we have 5 perfectly good ones in the basement waiting for use. then i came across this article on Patagonia's website. here is the end of that article. i think it sums up my life perfectly and i'm ready for a change.

Many of us in the United States live in what is thought to be abundance, with plenty all around us, but it is only an illusion, not the real thing. The economy we live in is marked by “not enough.” We once asked the owner of a successful business if he had enough money and he replied, “Don’t you understand? There is never enough.” We don't have enough money, and we also don’t have enough time. We don’t have enough energy, solitude or peace. We are the world’s richest country, yet our quality of life ranks 14th in the world. As Eric Hoffer, a mid-20th century philosopher, put it, “You can never get enough of what you don’t really need to make you happy." And while we work harder and harder to get more of what we don’t need, we lay waste to the natural world. Dr. Peter Senge, author and MIT lecturer, says, “We are sleepwalking into disaster, going faster and faster to get to where no one wants to be.” We might call this economy, the one we live in, the economy of scarcity.